It's amazing how exhaustion can set in so quickly. I had such a wonderful time with my grandsons Thursday and Friday. Going for a walk, swimming at the hotel pool, cooking dinner, going to the St. Louis zoo, etc. Yesterday and today I felt totally exhausted.
I think part of it was physical but I believe that most of it was emotional. I was so tired I didn't cook dinner last night. It was all I could do to pick up the phone and order pizza. My son and his sweet, beautiful girlfriend came over and spent the entire evening playing with Kristopher and doting on him as they love to do. We had a fun evening filled with pizza, presents, cake and ice cream. I have to admit, I have the most wonderful kids in the world!
Even though I was very tired when I went to bed I just couldn't go to sleep. I prayed and cried until quite late. I just felt I couldn't go on. I complained to God that my life was just too hard! I didn't even go to church this morning. I got up, ate a piece of toast then laid back down and fell soundly asleep again.
I thought about calling one of the gals in the jail ministry and ask her to go in my place tonight but, thank God, I didn't. What a blessing it is to me to take the Word of God to the ladies in cell block C! I feel so renewed now!
When I left the jail tonight and got into my car I cried for a moment as I usually do. The last time I communicated with Mom was Sunday, April 24th after I left the jail. I often called Mom and Dad as I drove home from the jail to tell them how things had gone. That night Mom had texted me so I just texted back. How I miss being able to talk to them, to run things past them or just to chat!
"Hallelujah!" That was Mom's text to me that last Sunday night. What a wonderful reminder to me of why we go through hard times!
2 Corinthians 1:3-5 (The Message)
All praise to the God and Father of our Master, Jesus the Messiah!
Father of all mercy! God of all healing counsel! He comes alongside us
when we go through hard times, and before you know it, he brings us
alongside someone else who is going through hard times so that we can be
there for that person just as God was there for us. We have plenty of
hard times that come from following the Messiah, but no more so than the
good times of his healing comfort—we get a full measure of that, too.