2013 is officially here. In many ways it just does not seem possible that it has come. Another New Year celebration. I have to be honest. I did not feel like celebrating.
It has been several weeks since I have written in my blog. Many times I sat down thinking I was ready to write and ended up staring at a blank screen. I just could not write. It seems that this holiday season has been harder on me than last year was. Maybe I just do not remember last year. Do not get me wrong. I enjoyed being with my kids and grandkids. It was so much fun watching them open their presents and just spending time together. But I feel a big hole in my heart.
I miss Mom and Dad so much that it hurts.
I had a call from the lead detective on Mom and Dads case two weeks ago. He really did not have much to report but it was good to hear from him. I worry that the detectives are working too hard on the case. I pleaded with him to take time for his family. As much as I want justice for Mom and Dad, solving this double homicide case will not bring Mom and Dad back. Their families are here now. This day is the only day we can count on.
I believe the main thing I have learned through this ordeal is to enjoy today. Enjoy the people I am with right now. Enjoy what I do every day. Do not wish for tomorrow for it will bring a whole new set of problems.
Matthew 6:34 (The Message)
Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.
When combined with Psalm 118:24 it becomes clear that God wants us to live in the present moment. Today.
Psalm 118:24 (English Standard Version)
This is the day that the Lord has made;
let us rejoice and be glad in it.
Enjoy this moment every day all year long!