Anxious

One week from today will mark 1 year since Mom & Dad were murdered.  No arrests have been made but I know detectives are working relentlessly on the case.  My brother Dave, Aunt Sis and I will meet with the sheriff next Wednesday.  That meeting will be followed by yet another press conference.

I am grateful that the press has kept this case before the public in Springfield, MO but it discouraging that we still have no closure.  I have found myself feeling quite anxious about the upcoming meeting.  I've had some crazy dreams off and on for the past month.  I know God is working in this tragic event but I wish I could see into the future and know the outcome.  It would certainly make trust a whole lot easier!

I have been reading through the Bible this year and just finished the book of Job.  By God's standards and by Satan's, Job was a good man who loved the Lord.  Yet he still suffered great losses and illness.  When Job questioned God, God's basic reply was who are you to question Me, the Creator of the universe?  It does help if I keep things in perspective!

Job 42:1-6 (The Message)

Job answered God: "I'm convinced: You can do anything and everything.
   Nothing and no one can upset your plans.
You asked, 'Who is this muddying the water,
   ignorantly confusing the issue, second-guessing my purposes?'
I admit it. I was the one. I babbled on about things far beyond me,
   made small talk about wonders way over my head.
You told me, 'Listen, and let me do the talking.
   Let me ask the questions. You give the answers.'
I admit I once lived by rumors of you;
   now I have it all firsthand—from my own eyes and ears!
I'm sorry—forgive me. I'll never do that again, I promise!
   I'll never again live on crusts of hearsay, crumbs of rumor."