My daughter, Sarah and I took her 5 day old son, JT to the hospital for a routine checkup on Monday. He had been asleep but woke up and decided he was hungry while we were in the car. Since he's a breastfed baby, she couldn't feed him while he was in the car seat. Of course, she wouldn't dream of taking him out of his seat in the car. She tried to console him but to no avail. He cried all the way there. Thankfully, it was a short drive. He did get to eat eventually and since he had surpassed his birth weight, he certainly hasn't missed a meal yet!
But being only 5 days old, he didn't understand. He wanted to eat and his Mommy wasn't feeding him. He kept crying out for food but it wasn't happening. Sarah made the comment that it broke her heart to have to listen to him cry. What she was doing was for his own good but he didn't know that.
It immediately made me think of how God wants to give us our desires but since He loves us, He will only give us what is in our best interest. I said imagine how God feels when we cry out to Him for something yet He has to answer, "Wait, my child." Often we become angry with Him for not giving us what we are asking for when we ask for it. How His heart must break!
Sarah asked, "Do you really think God's heart breaks for us?" I felt sure it did. When I had a few minutes tonight I looked in Scripture for instances. There are plenty! God's heart does break for us. When we grow impatient with God and question Him, His heart breaks. When we are disobedient, His heart breaks. When tough things happen to us and we feel God has deserted us, His heart breaks. After all, we are His children and He is the perfect Father who loves us more than we could fathom. I like this reference from Ephesians:
Ephesians 4:29-32 (The Message)
Watch the way you talk. Let nothing foul or dirty come out of your mouth. Say only what helps, each word a gift. Don't
grieve God. Don't break his heart. His Holy Spirit, moving and
breathing in you, is the most intimate part of your life, making you fit
for himself. Don't take such a gift for granted. Make
a clean break with all cutting, backbiting, profane talk. Be gentle
with one another, sensitive. Forgive one another as quickly and
thoroughly as God in Christ forgave you.
Mom and Dad used Psalm 23 as their morning devotional for a couple of months a few years ago. They used Phillip Keller's book, "A Shepherd Looks at Psalm 23" as guide for their study. Even though most of us are familiar with Psalm 23, Mom told me it really opened her eyes as to how much God loves us. He cares for us in ways we won't understand until we get to heaven.
Psalm 23 (The Message)
God, my shepherd! I don't need a thing.
You have bedded me down in lush meadows,
you find me quiet pools to drink from.
True to your word,
you let me catch my breath
and send me in the right direction.
Even when the way goes through
I'm not afraid
when you walk at my side.
Your trusty shepherd's crook
makes me feel secure.
You serve me a six-course dinner
right in front of my enemies.
You revive my drooping head;
my cup brims with blessing.
Your beauty and love chase after me
every day of my life.
I'm back home in the house of God
for the rest of my life.
His love is perfect. His love is deep. And, yes, His heart breaks for us, His beloved children.